Guilty Mom Days...

I know I can't be the only one that has these days. Sometimes I feel like I am in the "zone" and totally in control. I (sometimes) feel that I am doing this mommy job right, and even kinda good at it!

Other days (seems to be most), I feel guilt. I am not doing enough of this, I need to do more of that! Blah, blah, blah.

I could be totally wrong, but I think I feel this way more than a "working" mother because I feel like this is MY job and I should be doing it right! Right?

Anyway, yesterday I had one of those days and actually couldn't sleep last night worrying about it! I went to pick Tre up from school and they had done some art work and it was hanging on the wall. Tre's was obviously very beautiful, but compared to the rest of the children, it was obvious his art and coloring skills were lacking. I went home feeling like I don't do crafts or color enough with the kids. I totally over analyzed and wondered if I didn't make a big enough deal about his art work and he didn't feel as if it were appreciated. I wondered if he would be ready for kindergarten next year and thought about the possibility of holding him back. Yes... even though it's more than a year away, I let my mind go there.

Usually, when I get like this, Jack reminds me of all the areas he is excelling in. I tried to imagine Jack telling me that Tre's ability to concentrate is unbelievable. I tried to imagine him telling me that his ability to put together a puzzle that is labeled for 8 and up in less than 10 minutes is incredible. I tried to imagine him telling me that not all kids are gifted in art. I tried to imagine him telling me that I was over analyzing and completely crazy...because that is what he would have done if he were home. :)

So, crazy me, made a deal with myself. Every day after lunch is dedicated to art. We will draw. We will color. We will cut. And we will paste. Okay, maybe we'll mostly draw and color :) Anyway, I promised myself I would display their artwork and help them develop pride in their creations.

First thing I did (okay, second...I worked out first) was march myself over to Target. Silly me spent $60 on art supplies. I bought 2 really cool frames that opens from the side (like a door) that I can put that days art in and it has a folder in the back for the old pieces. I bought 2 coloring books, even though we have a trillion. I decided these would be special. We would do one page at a time. Our other coloring books get colored on every page in the matter of 10 minutes. I bought 2 sketch pads, scissors, and tape. I bought a frozen pizza too, but that's off subject!

I am attaching a picture of one of the new frames. When I picked Tre up from school, he had this in his cubby and I thought it was perfect for the initiation of our new frame. He was so proud to see it being hung!