Okay, so Jack JUST left yesterday and I am dying already. I am sooo not a good single mommy. I know it's all in the mind set, so I just need to switch my thinking. We were just outside playing in the baby pool and I was thinking, if I knew that Jack was getting home Monday, this wouldn't be that bad. Since I know he's not, though, I am driving myself down and asking myself, "how am I going to do this?", "How can I stay patient with the kids?", "Can I deal with a teething infant that fusses a lot all by myself for this long!" At the same time, I am just thankful that a deployment is not coming in the near future...although an IA is not unfathomable since 3 threats have graced the squadron in just the last month!
I have to confess, I always read the blogs and facebook updates and all that jazz from other military moms and it actually makes me feel worse about myself. They all seem so strong and so upbeat when their husbands are gone. I need and WANT so badly to be like that!
I guess I just need to stop feeling sorry for myself!
Although I'm not a mommy yet, I find myself sometimes almost lying on facebook and the blog when hubby's gone... not really lying, but definitely trying to put on the happy face, just to sort of trick myself....
ReplyDeleteMy guess is that's what other moms do too... so I don't think you should be so hard on yourself because I think we all spend hours asking ourselves if we can do it